I know that you guys appreciate my artwork for almost the past five years (Thanks anyway), but I can't really say the same for myself. It's true that I had been improving slowly throughout my time, but now I feel like I'm taking too long. As a 22-year old with an Associate's Degree on Graphic Design, I should be drawing better than how I made here on deviantart. Yes, the ideas are spot on and very interesting, but the way I draw them feels unfinished or taken the wrong way.
I did started drawing again before my High School senior year, and at first I did felt proud of what I made for the first two years. However, when time passes, I look back on what I done and I feel regretful of drawing SOME things incorrectly. Y'know the square eyes, the toes, using the same/similar positions, and the awful blocky anatomy. Even though I learned from my mistakes, I still feel like my art is not good enough because I might've not done enough or I tried too hard on it.
I watch my friends (real life and online) and followers having great art and put incredible effort on their art while I left mine with mediocre or little effort. Even though some of what I have are actually good (Note the "My Best Work" in my gallery), the others seemed like crap and I left them to rot in the scraps. I had three years throughout college to improve in my art. Instead, I threw away those last three years to fix up my real life issues, gaming, exercising, and being down right lazy. I regret missing out on many other opportunities I could've had and the people I could've meet earlier.
Even though I am still staying on Deviantart, I feel like I'm going to leave this into a junkyard full of sketches and other mediocre works, while my art on Tumblr will have more promising works that doesn't make me cringe in a way.
Again, it's true that the art I made in the past shows how much I improve, but I felt like I'm taking too long to improve.
I cannot let what I done bother me forever, I need to look forward and see what's up ahead. I had to give on console gaming if I want to focus more on my art. I haven't even touched my brother's PS4, because I care more about my 3DS and my Steam. I wanted a Wii U, but same reason with the PS4, it's best not to if I want to make time with my art. Also, my job is still taking mass amounts of time since I'm the only one working most afternoons/nights with even less time to work and with one day off. I have to miss out on many of my favorite shows, except Simpsons, so I can focus on my art.
If I want to improve like a real artist, I have to make time and stop with the excuses.